Thursday, January 15, 2009

Life as mommy

Everyone keeps asking what its like to be a mom, do I like it so far? In the beginning I wasn't sure what to say, because really I had only been a mom for a week and my child mostly slept. I couldn't tell if I liked it quite yet or if I was even doing anything that was that motherly. I had just had a c-section and couldn't move around much. Leif did most of the diaper changing and feeding. I knew loved my daughter, more than anything, but would I love being a mom?

The second week I decided I did like being a mom, I loved it. But I also learned it was hard. Leif went back to work and I was left on my own. It wasn't that I wasn't expecting it to be hard, I was. But what I didn't expect was that my new job as mommy required me to be available 24 hours a day, 7 days a week. There were no breaks Leif gets a break when he goes to work. Yes, he's working 40 hours a week then coming home to Riley and I, but its a bit different than staying home with Riley all the time. I'm learning just how different!

Yesterday for example, Riley was just fussy. All she wanted to do was sleep, eat and cry. She's going through a growth spurt and can't get enough food. She's also having growing pains. I tried to be patient but by the afternoon I just wanted Leif to come home and take her, and let me have a break. I didn't know how I was going to make it through the rest of the day and then the night... As soon as he walked through the door I handed Riley to him and told him I was done! When she was in his arms she stopped fussing. That drove me even more crazy! Leif didn't understand why I was so upset and worn out.

I actually thought that maybe I didn't want to stay home full time, maybe I wanted to work and come home to Riley at night. But then she smiled a few times for me, and I remembered why I wanted to stay home. And I remember that I really did love being a mom, especially her's. I'm sure I'll have plenty of other days like that, but I think I'll have a lot more really good days, which make all the other ones worth it. I couldn't imagine leaving her everyday and missing all the exciting new things she does every day. I'm very blessed to be able to stay home with her. God's good:)

How can I stay mad at a baby this cute? Seriously.

What is it like to be a mom? Challenging, different than anything I've ever done. But very rewarding and there is never a dull moment. Do I like it? I love it and think its the best thing that's ever happened to me. God has definitely blessed Leif and I with Riley. She's changed our lives completely. We've grown closer to God and each other because of her. Its pretty amazing. We spend a lot more time in the Word, and praying. We've also have come to appreciate and love each other on a whole new level. I can't believe that God can use someone so little to make such a big difference.


Jacqueline and Michael said...

You are such a great mommy! And I feel the same way as you about the not getting any breaks. It can be very tiresome at times but I can't think of anything more worth while to exhaust myself with, you know. The big goofy grins are what gets me through those rough fussy days. Its funny how one little child will want to scream at you one minute and snuggle with you the next! :P

Eric Toles said...

Hmmm....that's just a little amazing.
I can't get over how happy I am for you three.

Rain said...

Wow, I could not have explained it better myself. I totally relate. You will definitely have more positive days and that smile makes it worth it and you realize that nothing else matters!

Felicity said...

You do get those days and when she grows up, she will make you so proud, like I am so proud of my daughter, she is at university studying law. Riley is a very beautiful little girl and may God bless you with prosperity, good health and many more blessings. I enjoy reading your blog, of you and Leif. Thank you so much.

Monica said...

I totally get you. This is the question everybody asks. Motherhood is challenging, but rewarding. And it makes it all worth it when they smile. :)

Anonymous said...

I love your blog! I especially loved this post. I am excited to welcome our baby into the world..but I'm sure I will have days where I am completely exhausted. I love the honesty you shared!!

Thank you for stopping by my blog :)

The Chernik Family said...

Just think, those first smiles, giggles and belly will be there for those! You will be there for her first time crawling, for her first steps, her first words. You will be able to witness all of these moments that cannot be recreated! Believe me I totally understand how you feel on those fussy, seemingly endless days...but being a stay-home mom is so worth it! You will have so many memories to treasure for the rest of your life.