The second week I decided I did like being a mom, I loved it. But I also learned it was hard. Leif went back to work and I was left on my own. It wasn't that I wasn't expecting it to be hard, I was. But what I didn't expect was that my new job as mommy required me to be available 24 hours a day, 7 days a week. There were no breaks Leif gets a break when he goes to work. Yes, he's working 40 hours a week then coming home to Riley and I, but its a bit different than staying home with Riley all the time. I'm learning just how different!
Yesterday for example, Riley was just fussy. All she wanted to do was sleep, eat and cry. She's going through a growth spurt and can't get enough food. She's also having growing pains. I tried to be patient but by the afternoon I just wanted Leif to come home and take her, and let me have a break. I didn't know how I was going to make it through the rest of the day and then the night... As soon as he walked through the door I handed Riley to him and told him I was done! When she was in his arms she stopped fussing. That drove me even more crazy! Leif didn't understand why I was so upset and worn out.
I actually thought that maybe I didn't want to stay home full time, maybe I wanted to work and come home to Riley at night. But then she smiled a few times for me, and I remembered why I wanted to stay home. And I remember that I really did love being a mom, especially her's. I'm sure I'll have plenty of other days like that, but I think I'll have a lot more really good days, which make all the other ones worth it. I couldn't imagine leaving her everyday and missing all the exciting new things she does every day. I'm very blessed to be able to stay home with her. God's good:)
What is it like to be a mom? Challenging, different than anything I've ever done. But very rewarding and there is never a dull moment. Do I like it? I love it and think its the best thing that's ever happened to me. God has definitely blessed Leif and I with Riley. She's changed our lives completely. We've grown closer to God and each other because of her. Its pretty amazing. We spend a lot more time in the Word, and praying. We've also have come to appreciate and love each other on a whole new level. I can't believe that God can use someone so little to make such a big difference.