Wednesday, September 9, 2009

This time around.

When I was pregnant with Riley I signed up for every baby site, had them all send me email updates on her growth, and I had a countdown to the big ultrasound. I read What To Expect When You're Expecting religiously and a Your Pregnancy-Week by Week. Leif and I bought clothes before we knew we were having a girl, and as soon as we found out it was a girl, went on a shopping spree. We bought her crib, stroller, dresser and pack and play months before she was going to arrive. We even set them up and had her room done in August... She wasn't suppose to arrive until November. I was constantly aware of being pregnant, its all I thought about and all I could think about was November 22nd. Riley's due date. I was careful about what I ate and I ran every morning. I wanted to stay healthy and I wanted Riley to be healthy. Instead of giving into cravings I would eat fruit. I didn't make a birth plan, I just wanted to go with the flow. Which made it easier when I was in labor for 36+ hours, resulting in a c-section.

This second pregnancy though, things are different. I have the hardest time remembering how far along I am. I have no idea when my big ultrasound is, and honestly, its not something I've really thought about. I still get email updates but I usually delete them. People keep asking me about this pregnancy and sometimes I've forgotten that I'm pregnant. Sure, I'm more tired than usual but its not something I think about often. I haven't picked up any of my pregnancy books and I'm okay giving into some of my cravings. I don't really have the time like I did my first pregnancy. I like it better this way:) Its going by faster than the first time, plus I actually have things to do. My days are now filled with playing with Riley, the park, play dates, photography sessions, making dinner, cleaning... So forth.

Also, while Leif and I really wanted a boy, we're hoping this baby is a girl instead. Mostly for Riley's sake. I've been thinking about it and I would love having two girls. God knows though. Leif and I, and Riley, will be happy either way!

5 comments:

Life Happens During Naptime said...

I can totally understand this! Not so much from experience (hopefully soon) but from what I have seen from other 2nd, 3rd, etc time moms. I am still excited to find out what you are having =)

Yvonne said...

LOL!! You officially have momma brain. Life goes by so fast when you have a little one already at your foot. My poor son, he's our second and we just recently finished up his bedroom. He's 4 years! I know, we are so sad parents!!! Best of luck to you and your pregnancy.

ddbug said...

I am glad you are not hard on yourself and are embracing a more laid back attitude. My friends with more than one all say that is how it is the second time around. Having Elliott, I think I would like another boy so they can play together. Yet, I secretly want a girl too so I can experience that too. Are you guys going to find out the gender or be surprised. I am glad to hear you are doing well. Much luck to you and your family!!

Milk and Honey Mommy said...

Margaret,

It happens (at least that's what I remember). Things are so very different after the first child. It doesn't mean you love them any less or care less, but you become a little more confident in your role as a mother.

My daughter's (second child) first six months of life were a blur. I wish I'd given her the same attention as my son, but w/two at the time, I was learning how to manage everything! By the time I had my third child, I tried to focus more on the experience of being pregnant as well as the delivery because I knew he would probably be our last.

That is pretty cool that you ran through your first pregnancy. I was a runner before my first and stopped once I learned I was pregnant.

Kristen Holan said...

You know what's funny, is that I forget I'm pregnant sometimes, too, and I'm 8 1/2 months! While I am getting tired more these days, I can really see where you're coming from. It's hard to eat as healthfully as I used to because I'm trying to keep Andy happy, who isn't the most healthful eater. :)
I still am a stickler sometimes and find myself having to be a "Nazi" when it comes to things like portion sizes. Oh well... Hopefully he'll learn someday?