Christmas in Oregon.

Riley's first time in snow.

Leif and I drove up to Oregon on Christmas eve to surprise his mom:) The drive went surprisingly well! Riley played and slept most of the time. I've been so excited about this trip and wanted to blog about it, but since my mother in law reads my blog that wasn't possible. We've been having a lot of fun up here and its great that Riley is able to spend time with her grandparents and aunts. Here are some pictures from the last few days:

At Silvercreek Falls

Hanging out at the rest stop

Us at Ventis.

I'll post more later, most likely when we're back in California:)
So thankful we're here!

Gratitude Thursday: Happy Christmas Eve.

How cute is Riley?
I can't believe she's turning 13 months tomorrow and in 8 short weeks
she's going to be a big sister:)!

HAPPY CHRISTMAS EVE!

I am thankful that we'll be spending most of our Christmas Eve in the car together:)
I'm looking forward to taking photos, playing with Riley, eating peanut butter and jelly sandwiches, listening to lots of music and having wonderful discussions with my husband. I really do enjoy long car rides with my family.

Cream Scones Recipe.

I love scones. I think they're wonderful topped with devonshire cream and jelly. I found an amazing recipe for simple cream scones that I thought I'd share... Especially since I haven't posted any recipes in awhile:)

Ingredients:

• 2 Cups of flour
• 1/3 Cup of sugar
• 2 teaspoons of baking powder
• 1/4 teaspoon of salt
• 1/3 Cup of cold unsalted butter, cut into pieces
• 1 Large egg beaten
• 1 Teaspoon of vanilla extract
• 1/2 cup of Whipping Cream or Milk
  

Make:

• Oven should be set to 375. You should line a cookie sheet with parchment paper.
• Whisk together flour, sugar, baking powder and salt. Cut the butter into small pieces, then blend into flour mixture with a pastry blender or two knives. Blend until the mixture looks like coarse crumbs.
  
• In another bowl combine whipping cream, beaten egg and vanilla. Add this to the flour mixture. Stir until combined. Do not overmix.
• Knead dough on a floured surface. You can either roll or pat the dough into a circle. Then using a cookie cutter, cut the dough.
  
• Melt some butter and brush bottoms and tops of scones with butter, then brush the tops with cream.
• Bake for 15-18 minutes. Until browned.
  

Enjoy enjoy enjoy!

Riley's Jewelry.

If you know Leif and I, you know that our favorite place to shop is J. Crew. The day Riley could fit into their childrens clothes was an exciting day for us. Monterey doesn't have many of our favorite shops but thankfully there is a J. Crew! Sadly it only carries womens clothing... So we drive the 45 minutes to Gilroy to go to the outlet. Its always worth the drive. The last few times we've gone I asked Leif if I could buy Riley some of the kid jewelry, but he told me I was ridiculous, you don't put jewelry on a baby.
We went to the J. Crew outlet last night for fun & while Leif was paying I went outside with Riley so she could run around. When we got home Leif showed me the necklace and two bracelets he bought for Riley. I was just like "Seriously?" He told me they were just so pretty and she'd look cute in them. This morning he showed her and she was so happy! She loves wearing my necklaces and was excited to have her own. The bracelets amazed her and anytime they fell off she'd try to put them back on right away. Usually she couldn't so she'd hand them to daddy to put back on and bounce because she was so excited.

Someone is definitely a daddy's girl:)

Truly Authentic Mom

I was tagged by Karly as a TAM, also known as a Truly Authentic Mom. Normally when I get tagged I don't participate because I forget... But today I'm going to just sit down and do it because one, I like Karly and two, Riley is napping

. I guess I'm suppose to list 5 things that I think make me a TAM. Here is my list:

1. I'm pretty laid back when it comes to being a mom. I think I surprise myself sometimes... A lot of things that would scare a first time mom, don't seem to bother me. A lot of it has to do with how calm and relaxed my husband is, and his experience with children. Plus, I really want to enjoy every moment with Riley, without being worried the whole time.

2. I don't get a shower in everyday. I think that makes me a authentic mom:) It used to be because I was sleeping most of the day with Riley when she was a newborn. But now its because I'm busy doing things through out the day. Plus I'm learning its better for my skin and hair anyways.

3. While I'm not the mom that looks down on other women who don't breastfeed... I am, I'll admit, the mom who is a bit snobby when it comes to where I buy my childs clothes. I refuse to shop at places like Gymboree & the Childrens Place. I dislike them very much. And really, I'm not half as bad as my husband. We're more than excited to be able to buy boy clothes as well. We've already started in fact:)

4. I prefer hanging out with my friends who aren't parents because then we have conversations about other things besides babies and kids. Its hard when you're with another mom to talk about something other than your children. I don't really like telling people about Riley's latest accomplishments over and over. I feel like I'm being annoying and bragging too much.

5. Riley has more books than she does toys. We don't really like to buy her toys, and she prefers books anyways. If she could she'd have me read to her all day. When we do buy her a toy its a puzzle, or a wooden toy. Yes, she is that kid that will have mostly wooden toys.

I am tagging:

• My best friend Kristen:)
• Ashley, one of my best friends here in Monterey
  
• Nikki, one of my closest mommy friends from babycenter.
  
• Madison, another close friend from babycenter.
  

Gratitude Thursday

Today I am grateful for:

A child who sleeps 12 hours every night. I can't believe that once she woke up every two hours to be fed. I also can't believe that I'll be doing that again in about 9 weeks. Its amazing that just within a year her sleeping patterns have changed so drastically. I remember when we were waking up with Riley constantly to feed her, I kept reminding myself that it was only for a few weeks... It helped me get through those late night feedings and actually enjoy them:)
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A husband who makes sure I take time for myself. Its easy to lose yourself amongst cleaning the house, laundry, cooking meals, tending to a baby and running errands. Leif is always trying to find ways to help me get a break. Even if it means he has to watch Riley after work while I go to the gym or lay down. Never does he complain about working all day, instead he thanks me for keeping the house clean and taking care of our daughter, then offers to help me out. How did I get so lucky?
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Riley and me time. I love spending my days with Riley. I'll be honest, in the beginning I didn't enjoy it as much because she slept most of the time and I just felt bored. Now, I never get bored. There's always something for us to do. We run errands in the morning, then we play and have an early lunch, naptime=cleaning time for mommy, and then we head out to the park with snacks. Nothing is better than having your child play with you and every once in awhile look up at you and smile. I love those moments. Or when we're shopping and she just reaches up to hug me. Part of me wishes it would only be the two of us for a little bit longer, but then the other part of me is so excited to spend my days with two children. I'm thankful that I'm able to stay at home with Riley... I wish that Leif was able to experience what I get to everyday.
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My own washer and dryer. When we lived in an apartment, doing laundry was always difficult. It took me weeks to get around to doing it because it required I go back and forth between our apartment, and the laundry room a few times through out the day. Maybe I'm just lazy? It became even more difficult when Riley became mobile because I couldn't just leave her by herself, and taking her with me wouldn't really work. Now laundry gets done almost every other day, plus I don't have to use $5 to do it:) I'm so grateful that we have a washer and dryer in our house. It makes getting things done a lot easier.
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The 15th of every month. I look forward to this day every month because it means I'm going to get sunflowers from my husband. He's never forgotten. Sometimes he hasn't been able to make it to the store in time so I get my flowers the next day, but he always remembers. Its important to him that I know how much I mean to him, and this is one of the ways he shows me. Its nice to be loved.

So excited!

We finally got the exact date that Beck will be joining our family:)
February 26th I'll be having my c-section and meeting my little boy.
I can't wait!

The Family Room

Our living room happens to also be the tv room, playroom and library... So really its a family room until people come over, then it turns into the living room. I love having everything in one room. Yes, someday I'd like to have separate rooms for our books, our tv, and the millions of toys. But right now, it works so well.

For the majority of the day Riley is in the family room playing and reading. I join her when chores have been done around the house. I never get tired of playing games on the rug with her or eating our lunch together while I read to her. After dinner I love sitting on the couch next to Leif while he plays wii, and Riley is on the rug playing with her toys. I like that because everything is in one room, we're almost forced to be together constantly. I look forward to our evenings together in the family room. I cherish these times and hope that these nights will be around for at least a few more years. I never get tired of Riley sitting between us so we can read to her, or watching Leif and Riley dance together. Even if we're not really interacting, I enjoy that we're together.

I realized today that this room has been a blessing to me. I've spent many days and nights with my husband, daughter and friends in this room. I've had amazing story times, conversations and spur of the moment dance parties with just Leif and I. I am thankful for this part of my house.

Riley the toddler.

Before her tantrum

During.

&after

I remember when I first had Riley people constantly told me that every few weeks she would be a different baby. Her sleeping patterns would change. Her eating habits would be different. Her personality would start to be more obvious. I thought the big changes would only happen within the first year. But no, the big changes are still happening...like the fact that Riley has started to throw tantrums. Riley the baby never got that upset, never really cried over things. Riley the toddler, on the other hand, gets very upset. One minute she's happy and the next, angry. You tell her no, she can't play with the tv. She throws herself down and acts like the world has just ended. You take something away and she'll start screaming and rolling around on the floor. If you eat without sharing with her, she'll freak out, and force tears so you feel bad for her.

I hear this is normal though... At least all the mommies I know have told me so. Maybe they're trying to make me feel better, and I just have an awful child? ;) I kid. Thankfully she's so cute and funny. It makes dealing with the tantrums a lot easier. And I love the hugs and kisses I get after she's done. I like to think of them as apologies haha! She's a stubborn little girl but mommy is a lot more stubborn and will win most of these battles.

How we ended the weekend

With hot chocolate, tea and a movie:)
It was a nice end to the weekend.
We watched The Class.
It was a french movie Leif had been trying to get us to watch for a few weeks now.
Last night seemed like the perfect night for it...
I definitely recommend this movie!
&Hot chocolate and tea

Rainy Saturdays

I love when it rains here in Monterey. Its different than when it rains in Southern California. I wish I could describe it... It just feels more natural here than it does in So Cal. And I think its a lot prettier!

Well, Leif and I spent part of this rainy day on the couch watching Singing in the Rain. I've been wanting to watch it for a few weeks but kept putting it off. It was such a good way to spend the morning. The day had started out a bit hectic, so this was a good way to relax and spend time together. I had to resist singing all the songs cause Leif finds it a little annoying:) I enjoyed it even nonetheless though! Musicals are one of my favorite things, and I never get tired of watching Gene Kelly dance.

Leif pointed out last night that I've been negative lately and its discouraging him. At first I got really upset, because normally I'm not a negative person. Plus no one likes to hear that they're discouraging their husband. I didn't want to believe that I was that kind of wife. No! We argued about it for awhile, and eventually I had to agree with him. I'm not sure I agreed with him outloud though, :) I've had a terrible attitude lately and when I thought I was being honest with Leif about things bothering me, I was just complaining. Awful.

I hate hearing things like that. Its hard to hear that you've been putting someone down, even if it wasn't directly, when you should be building them up. I always want to build my husband up, encourage him, support him, love him. I didn't think that my complaining was going to affect Leif in any way but it did. And in a bigger way than I thought. I'm thankful he talked to me though and was willing to listen. I don't enjoy arguing with my husband, but I think the discussion we had last night was important and needed. I spent a lot of the morning praying, asking God to change my heart and outlook. I think theres going to be some changes made:)

This is my theme song for this time in our life.
It has been since we got married.

"I got a man to stick it out
And make a home from a rented house
And we'll collect the moments one by one
I guess that's how the future's done"

Gratitude Thursday

I'm happy its Thursday because that means I get to make a list of things I'm thankful for. This week has been hard and stressful for me. I've been complaining a lot, feeling sorry for myself, and just ungrateful. I won't go into detail because really it doesn't matter:) What matters is today is a new day and God is always good.

Today I am grateful for:
::The friends I've made here in Monterey::

I'm grateful for the friends that stop by when I'm sick.
I'm grateful for the friends that watch Riley for me when I need to go to the doctor
or I just need a night out with Leif.
I'm grateful for the friends who drop in unexpectedly.
I'm grateful for friends that I meet at the park weekly and have Breakfast Club with.
I'm grateful for friends that have dinner parties with us.
I'm so grateful for each and every person I've met since living here in Monterey.

My silly girl.

Riley decided that she wanted to dress up in her scarf and mittens... But really just one mitten so she could hold her sippy cup and eat cereal. Every time her mitten falls off she screams a bit and hands it to me, holding out her hand saying "ya ya ya". It makes me laugh, seriously how fun is she?

Now she's off to my room to find her favorite necklace to wear. :) Little girls are fun.

Such a big girl!

Here's a video of Riley feeding herself:) I'm very proud of my little girl! I think I'm more excited about her feeding herself than when she began to walk, haha!

Being content

"The Lord will indeed give what is good, and our land will yield its harvest"
-Psalm 85:12

I'm learning to be content with where God has me, has our family. For the past few weeks I've been struggling with the idea of being far from family and friends who are like family. I hate the idea of grandparents not seeing Riley grow, only seeing her every few months. I'm jealous of families that live close to their parents and brothers and sisters. I want that for our family so badly.

But, this is what God wants for us right now. Most days I fight Him about it, question our being in Monterey. What was once excitement is now anger and some disappointment. I really don't understand why we're here and not somewhere else. And when I mean somewhere else I mean near family. God knows though, has His reasons for bringing us here and that comforts me. That brings me peace and joy.

I was talking to a friend yesterday and we were talking about where we'd like to be. Where we see ourselves in a few years. She said she wanted to leave Southern California and doesn't know what she'd do if God wants her to remain there. That made me stop and panic in a way. I don't want God to keep us here for very long! But then I remembered why we came here in the first place: We wanted to follow where God lead us, no matter where that was. We were excited about that... Where has that excitement gone? Why aren't we content simply knowing that God has us here for a reason and will bless us while we're here?

I've found a new excitement for Monterey and whats in store for our family. I know my God is good. Always.

Nothing better.

Last night Riley was having some trouble sleeping so I went in there and held her for a bit. I love moments like those... When all she needs is simply for me to hold her. There's nothing better than having your child wrap their arms around you and rest their head on your shoulder. I wanted that moment to last forever, just the two of us in her room. We're in the process of re-training her to sleep through the night, thanks to sickness and some teething things have been thrown off. Again. While I knew I should put her right back in her crib, I didn't. I sang to her and rocked her. The older she gets the more rare these nighttime moments together become. And its even more rare that she prefers me instead of Leif to comfort her. I was cherishing the few minutes I held her and loving that she wanted me to hold her.

The whole time I held her I just thanked God for giving me this opportunity to be a mother and to raise a child. Its amazing how a little person can change your life and bless it over and over. Having Riley has made me closer to God, my husband, friends and family. I have a new appreciation for so many things and I look at things differently than before. It blows my mind! I love it:) God is so good!

Only a few more months.

I'm 6 months pregnant... 26 weeks to be exact. Its hard to believe that in two and a half months we'll be adding another member to our family! We still don't have an exact date of when Beck will be born and I'm so anxious to find out when it will be. I think after Christmas we're going to be able to set up the date.

I'm also anxious to get this baby off of my sciatic nerve. For the last few months I've been having the hardest time walking, standing, sitting and just moving because my son has decided to rest on my nerve:) Riley rested on my nerve a bit but never to the point that I wasn't able to move! Honestly, the pain is a lot worse than my labor was and my c-section. Times like these I'm so grateful for the internet! I've been able to research ways to help relieve the pain, and avoid it all together. Praise Jesus!

Despite the morning sickness I had the first 8 weeks & the back pain, this pregnancy has been really good. I wasn't sure how I would handle being pregnant with a toddler but things have gone smoothly. I think a lot of it really has to do with Riley being such a good baby. I can't tell you how helpful it is to have my child never fight me when it comes to her naps, having her play in her play area while I clean, not having her throw tantrums or even cry once though out the day... Its really a blessing when you're tired from not sleeping enough and without very much patience:) Of course come the weekend, when Leif is home, Riley doesn't want to nap and throws plenty of tantrums, haha.

This pregnancy has been a lot different than Riley's, but I'm still enjoying it and being blessed by it constantly. God is good!

Anamalz

With Riley turning one this past week, it seems like the number of toys floating around the house has doubled. We barely had enough room in the car for her presents on our drive home today. Our families tend to spoil her, especially since she's the first grandchild on both sides of the family. Anyways, I wanted to highlight one of the toys she got, since people have already started their Christmas shopping. Margaret and I are big fans of wooden toys, and Riley has several items from Melissa and Doug. Below are pictures of Anamalz, which are made by another company that specializes in wooden toys, Hape. These toys are hand-made using sustainable resources, and they're some of the cutest wooden toys we've found. If you're interested in them, HauteLook has them for 50% off for the next 24 hours. To get to the sale, follow this link...

http://www.hautelook.com/invite/LJacobsen591

It's a members only site, but once you create a username and password, you can navigate to the Hape sale. Also, take a look at these sites to see more of their products.

http://www.anamalz.com/
http://www.hapetoys.com/

I love

when my husband tells me: "I miss your cooking".

So happy to be home from our trip to So Cal and happy to be able cook for my husband again:)

Riley is one!

Riley turned one on Wednesday, the 25th.

We've been celebrating most of the week:)
Thank you Lord for this last year.
It has been a year full of love, adventures and lots of lessons learned.

Last Year::Riley's birth.

This time last year I was sitting in a hospital bed waiting for Riley's arrival. I had been induced at 8 that morning and we were expecting her to come by that night... But she didn't come. I remember thinking that I was going to be there all week just waiting. I wasn't making any progress, even with the pitocin all the way up. I remember getting contractions but thinking I was just having cramps. The doctor would come in every few hours and tell me she's arrive within 3 hours. She still didn't come. The following day, even after having my water broken there was no progress. Finally later that night we decided to do a c-section because apparently my hips were too narrow and she was brow presenting. All I could think about was how I wasted two days of my life in a bed when we could have cut her out hours ago.


Most people would have been upset about having a c-section. That's what they tell me:) It didn't bother me. I was just happy that my baby girl was finally here and safely. I remember meeting her for the first time and thinking she was too pale to be my child but I loved her anyways! (Here is the post we posted after she was born: Riley's birth) I think everyone got to hold her before me. I was okay with that. When I finally got to hold her, I was in amazement that God gave her to Leif and I. I had a hard time believing that the baby growing inside of me the last 9 months was finally here and was even more wonderful than I had imagined.

We got to take Riley home on Thanksgiving. I was so happy about that. I was scared I would be spending Thanksgiving in the hospital, especially since I had had a c-section. I had barely stayed two days when my doctor gave me the okay to go home. I was so thankful and excited to be able to celebrate Thanksgiving with my family and also introduce Riley to everyone.

This year I'm even more excited for the holiday because Riley will be one, eating with us, and playing. Such a difference in one year! I'm so thankful for my little girl and the joy she's brought to our lives!

Oh Happy Weekend.

::Riley walking down the street. She loves being able to walk::

I'm very happy the weekend has arrived. This week was good but I'm looking forward to spending the next two days with my husband. I've missed him a lot during the last few days. All day I would check the clock to see how close 5:30 was... It never came soon enough! I'm also hoping that I'll be able to catch up on things like reading, photo editing, cleaning, and maybe some letter writing? I'm also hoping to fit some baking in there and a trip to World Market.

I miss blogging and wish I would set more time aside for it. Hopefully next week I'll do better at updating:) Enjoy your weekend!

Just wanted to share:

One week until Riley turns one:)
My baby girl has gotten so big so fast!
It still blows my mind when she asks for food or walks around.
And every time I get a hug and kiss I get excited as if its the first time.
Its just hard to believe that the little baby I brought home last year
isn't a little baby anymore.

Thank You Jesus for this year.
Its been wonderful in every way.

Being a parent & time management.

Lately I've been making a list in my head of all the things I've learned since becoming a parent almost a year ago. I'm surprised by all the ways I've changed and the person I've become. I'm also surprised at how I've stayed the same in some aspects. Over the next few days I'll post from this list I've come up with.

• Since becoming a parent I have learned time management (finally). I've never been good at managing my time. It was my biggest struggle in college and even after. I would always forget to set time aside for homework or cooking dinner. Never cleaned when I said I would, then things would pile up and I'd be miserable. I'd always schedule too many things in one day, making it nearly impossible for myself. Somehow having a child has taught me how to organize my time and take advantage of every minute of the day. Doing this has made it so each day I have more than enough time to get things done. Naptimes make for the perfect opportunity to clean and prepare for dinner. Lunchtime is a good time to catch up on reading or returning emails. Showertime is 15 minutes of me time that I cherish. By three everyday all things have been accomplished and the rest of the day is devoted to playing with Riley. Managing my time has helped keep me organized and very stress-free! Why didn't I learn how to do this years ago???
  

Gratitude Thursday

I am thankful for good health! For about a week now we've all been sick and its been miserable around here. Thankfully we're all feeling much better and picking up where we left off last week. There are still some lingering coughs and a runny nose here and there. But overall, things are almost back to normal and we're so grateful:)! I am so happy to be able to clean my house and take care of my husband and baby again. I need to not take good health for granted. Ever.

Return.

We've been battling colds over here since last week. As soon as things return to normal, hopefully blogging will pick up again:)

Gratitude Thursday

I love this picture so much!

The LORD is my strength and my shield; My heart trusts in Him, and I am helped; Therefore my heart exults, And with my song I shall thank Him.
Psalm 28:7

Today I'm grateful for God's strength. Yesterday was a trying day. I didn't have the energy to do anything, except sleep. That's not really an option when an almost toddler needs you and there are chores to be done. By dinnertime I was past done and ready to call it a night early. I was irritable and frustrated. I hate being like that towards Leif and Riley. Before bed I prayed that today would be better and that I would have more strength to get through the day. I also prayed that I would have more joy today than I did yesterday.

I'm grateful that God answers prayers. I only got 5 hours of sleep last night. Leif and I stayed up playing Wii:) We were woken up at 5:30am by the phone and by Riley. Normally I would have been grumpy, and ready to fall back asleep but I felt wide awake. We decided that instead of going back to sleep we'd spend time together. I'm so happy we did! It helped me start my day off on a positive note and made me excited about the rest of the day. Its not even 10 and the whole house has been cleaned, and all the laundry done. Hallelujah! And I don't even feel tired yet.

I'm grateful for a renewed spirit and my family. Yesterday really discouraged me. I questioned if motherhood and being a housewife was really something I was capable of doing. I went to bed feeling so defeated, dreading today. Today I am feeling refreshed and excited for what God has in store for me in regards to being a mom and wife. I am so grateful for my wonderful husband who never ceases to amaze me with his faith and his giving heart. I am also grateful for my daughter who reminds me to have a joyful heart always.

I'm grateful for the trials. Whenever I'm in the midst of a trial I never think I'll be able to get through it. I always want to give up, but that's when I realize just how much I need God and His strength. I'm grateful for the trials I go through because they are reminders of how limited I am without God. God is not limited like I am. He is my strength.

A story.

Riley and I went to the mall yesterday, mostly so I could go to Cinnabon. And when I say we went to the mall, I mean we drove 20 miles to Salinas to go to the mall. We have a mall here in Monterey but its a small outdoor mall. It has your basic stores I suppose but its really a boring place to go. I had a craving and I didn't care that I'd have to drive almost a half hour to fulfill it. Plus it got Riley and I out of the house.

After I got my cinnabon, we walked around the mall. If you can call Riley's walking actual walking. It takes forever to get anywhere when shes walking. But she's so proud of herself and wears the biggest smile, so I let her. While in Victorias Secret a few people made comments to me about Riley. One lady argued with me about the color of Riley's eyes. She told me that Riley had to have blue in her eyes. I assured her that she did not. She asked me if I was sure. I was like "I'm very sure". Then she looked a bit disappointed that Riley had only brown eyes. After this conversation someone else asked if Riley was white and my first thought was "no". But then I remembered, "My child is white". Ha! After I said yes, the lady asked: "So black and white?". Part of me really wanted to ask her if she was serious, obviously I'm black... But I didn't. I just smiled, nodded, and walked away. Not because I'm rude though, because Riley was pushing the stroller into some displays. While catching up to Riley, a sales associate came up to me and asked if Riley was my child because she didn't look like me at all. I almost rolled my eyes but I simply replied that she looks just like her dad.

I'm always surprised by questions strangers will ask you. I guess it keeps things interesting though. It made my visit to Victorias Secret a lot more entertaining than it would have been otherwise. Not only did I leave the store with my correct bra measurements but also an amusing story to share with my husband and I guess those that read my blog:)

11 months.

In three weeks Riley will turn 1. For the first time I actually cried a little today because my tiny baby is no longer tiny. She's huge. She walks and attempts to talk. She can feed herself and laughs at everything. She enjoys pulling things out of baskets and off of shelves so she can reorganize them. She also enjoys screaming at me when she doesn't get her way. :)

The other night Leif and I were going through all her pictures and videos from birth on. It amazed me how much she had changed in just 11 months. I have a hard time remembering what it was like getting up with her every two hours or having to hold her bottle for her. I knew time would fly by, so I tried to enjoy these things, even when it was at 2am in the morning. Sometimes I miss those moments, but overall I'm grateful she sleeps through the night! I do still miss having her sleep in between Leif and I, even though I always ended up on the edge of the bed. If I try to get her to sleep between us now, she just wants to play.

I love the way things are now though. Every morning Riley snuggles with Leif and I and kisses us over and over. She plays in her play area while mommy gets things done around the house. When it's time to put on her shoes, she hands them to me and holds up her feet. When its time to eat, she'll say "yum yum" over and over again. I love that I can actually read to her now and she'll pay attention. She constantly pulls out books and brings them to me. My favorite is when she reaches for me or points at me when she'd like me to play. It usually only happens when Leif's around, but I don't mind. I'm always amazed at what she's learned and how smart she keeps getting. And I think I'll only continue to be amazed as she gets older.

I'm so grateful for my daughter. And grateful for these last 11 months!

Monday Morning.

I love Monday mornings. In college I dreaded them because it was a reminder that a week of classes awaited me. Now, Mondays are reminders that a new week has begun and we get to start over. Its refreshing and to me a gift from God.

Every morning we follow a sort of routine that we fell into somehow. I love it. I actually miss it during the weekends... I think that's partly why I love Mondays. The return of our routine! I never saw myself as a person who needs structure but as Riley gets older I'm learning that I need a schedule, to stay on top of things. Having a routine helps us have some family time in the morning which I think is so important. I try to make it a point for us to eat breakfast together every morning. I cherish those times, and I think that it helps get our day started on the right foot.

How do you feel about Mondays?

Happy Birthday Leif!

Riley and I hope you have a wonderful birthday!
We can't wait to bring you your surprise in a little bit
We love you so very much.
Always!

Parts of home.

This past weekend four of my good friends came up for a visit. It was wonderful! It felt like I had parts of home with me in Monterey. Their visit came at the right time. I've been longing for home and for the people there. I can't tell you how refreshing it was to sit on my bed and talk for hours with the girls while the boys played video games;). I hadn't had a deep conversation like I did this past weekend in months... I loved it! I didn't want to say goodbye but it was comforting to know that I'll be seeing them all in a month. I wish that when I did come down for Thanksgiving I could just stay there in Southern California. I will have to make do with a week!

Sometimes I wish my adjustment to Monterey would go much quicker. I wish I wouldn't get as homesick as I do. I always thought I was the type of person that could just get up and move anywhere without any problem. I'm learning that I'm not. I am having such a hard time being apart from my family and my friends. I hate too that Riley is growing up so fast and everyone is missing out on it.

I am grateful though for the people we have met, for the friends I've made. I'm grateful for Leif's job. I'm grateful for Skype so we are able to see our families and friends. I'm trying to remember that God brought us here for a reason. Some days its easier to remember while others, like when I really want to drive over and see my mom, its not. God is good though. Always.

And we're having...

...a boy!

Leif and I both thought it was going to be a boy
because we wanted a girl so badly. We're happy though!
I'm looking forward to actually being able to buy the boy clothes
I always look at when we go shopping for Riley.
I think Riley will enjoy having a little brother!
And having a girl and a boy should prove to be exciting!

Gratitude Thursday... on Friday.

I'm thankful for my baby girls smile

and for her silly giggles and laughs.
I'm thankful for her constant good mood, despite having molars coming in.
I'm thankful for how excited she gets about going out to the store or outside period.
I'm thankful for her hugs and kisses that she gives me out of the blue.
I'm thankful for the way her face lights up whenever she sees daddy.
I'm thankful for her happy squeals in the morning when we let her join us in bed.
I'm so thankful for being blessed with such a happy baby that finds joy in everything.

I want to find joy in everything.