Last night was a good night. We didn't have an intruder in our bed, and Beck actually woke up to eat. I was looking forward to today. I made Leif breakfast and brought it to him in bed, got Riley dressed, fed Beck, assuming I'd have time to shower and eat before the kids doctors appointment today. But then Beck wanted to keep eating, and so there went my shower. When I thought maybe he was finished, he still wanted to eat! So there went my breakfast:(
It put me in a bad mood. I was so grumpy and told Leif it was basically all his fault. If he had just helped me... He said "I thought that's what your mom was here for". And I'm so glad she is here! Do not get me wrong, but I still need my husbands help. He always tells me I need to just ask but I want him to just offer. He does offer a lot, which I'm thankful for. I need to thank him for that more often. And I do need to ask for help. Not just ask Leif but people who offer to help.
I fought with my mom today too which didn't help the day:( I am struggling with having her here all day everyday. Its hard to have someone in your home who does something so differently then you do. We are both very particular people, which makes for lots of arguments and disagreements. Today we argued a lot over what I can and can't do. I don't like when people put limits on me. Especially my mother. She kept reminding me that I couldn't pick Riley up, I couldn't clean, I couldn't do this and I couldn't do that. I did realize though that I need to simply accept my moms help, be grateful she is here and willing to help me. Even if it means she'll do things a lot differently than me.
Today I learned a few lessons. Accept help when its offered and ask when its needed.Highlights of today: Beck has gained a few ounces since coming home & Riley didn't cry getting her shot.
5 comments:
oh man, i suck at not only asking for help, but accepting it when i know it may not be exactly perfectly what i want. ever since i was a baby i have been determined to do things my way or the highway, and i expect to reply on me and only me. my first sentence was "me help me!"
yikes.
if i weren't Christian, I would have no reminder that I am made for community and it is disrespectful to God for me to expect to only rely on me and never be in community with others. oof. Being stubborn has its benefits in a lot of ways, but sometimes it is pretty dang frustrating huh?
You'll be fine. Just remember your mom does and says what she does out of love. Remember also that your hormones are out whack now too so you may just be being a little more sensitive than usual.
You gotta learn when to let go and let God. But also it may help to let your mom know (in a loving and caring tone-lol) that you love her but to let go a bit just like you're trying to. Hopefully she'll understand.
Now as for Leif. Good man from all I've read of him. I know we wish our men could read our minds sometimes but that's not the nature of men always. This scenario made me laugh though because this is JUST what the new Sinbad stand up talked about on Sunday. You gotta watch it. You'll laugh about it all when you do! :) He basically said just what Leif said 'just tell me and i'll do it!' LOL
Rania
(btw - i'm loving your baby boy pictures. Makes me miss having one! I miss that new baby smell! siiiiigh) hahh
The pictures you posted are amazing! I am the same way... I suck at asking for help and by the time I do it comes when I am frustrated and overwhelmed in the form of "but you didn't help me". Hang in there and get rest! You are a wonderful mom and you don't have to do everything on your own to be one.
Congratulations on the newest addition! Beck is a very handsome little man, you are blessed! I haven't blogged since June...It's very nice to see the growth of your beautiful family = ) And you are right, except help when it is offered. We all need help sometimes, we can't be too proud to ask for it.
JJ
I completely understand your comment where your hubby wanted you to ask him for help and you just wanted him to offer. Sounds like every day at my house. It sounds so easy, Yet why is it always an issue? =)
Sorry to hear you and your mom had an argument. Things can get crazy when your life changes so much.
Your son is just precious, I love these pictures you posted.
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